heart to heart.

you know, i read a story somewhere from a woman who said something along the lines of: “i am suicidal. but it’s not what you think.” she had a normal life, wasn’t harming herself, wasn’t particularly in a hard situation…it was just a constant feeling of “if i died, i wouldn’t mind,” and “wow, i actually feel like being dead would be easier.”

the fact that people from my school probably read my blog to screenshot and make fun of in group chats is the only reason why i felt hesitant to talk about this. but, honestly, i don’t really care- i use my blog to vent and to talk and so i will. today, on the 4th of april, i decided and completely came to the conclusion that i am suicidal. and it’s honestly not what you think.

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hello, bridgnorth.

welcoming back the good old “hello…” series i started a while back, i decided to make a post dedicated to a trip i took a few days ago, (well, last weekend!) when me and my family packed up our necessities and travelled down to bridgnorth to visit a family member, and take photographs for my sister.

like always, bridgnorth never fails to leave me with a sentimental feeling in my stomach. honestly, i’m not too sure what it is about the place that makes me feel so warm and nostalgic, but i’ve been going there to visit my nan for as long as i can remember, and no matter how many times i visit, the effect will always be the same.

of course, bridgnorth has literally nothing to offer; i was actually shooketh when i found out that bridgnorth had a cinema! a cinema! wow, they’re really putting themselves out there!

but, beyond the fact that the only people who live there are old people and small families, and that the shops are small and antique and no matter where you turn there is always a super cute dog, which is the best thing ever, i actually really do love bridgnorth. would probably never voluntarily live there on my own (i do think i’d die of boredom if i did so), but still, i love the place. so, on my journey, i took a few pictures to upload onto instagram (some are already up there, some are dying in my camera roll!) and so i thought i’d share- as tradition- for the third (or fourth, who knows) installment of “hello…”!

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louis newland forced me to write this-

he asked me to make a post about him so that’s what i’m doing. i told him he wasn’t my friend today but really he is, so, sorry louis. also i don’t know what to write about him because i honestly don’t know him at all, we’re just in the same engineering class, we’ve spoke like 3 times and to be honest i didn’t even know he knew who i was.

but yeah. sometimes engineering is dead and louis makes it funny. thanks. you make engineering that much more enjoyable. thanks for not being mean to me + actually talking to me sometimes because a lot of the time people just ignore me and it’s actually really sad

hi, let’s chat about my book + other stuff nobody really cares about.

woah– i’ve been kind of mia off blogging for a while, and there’s no excuse, really. i’ve just been busy with school + other things to actually want to sit down and write something on here. it felt kind of forced, which sucks, because blogging should come naturally. having been doing it for like 3 years, you think it would just come naturally to me, but sometimes, it doesn’t. so i pushed it under the rug, for far too long, and now i’m here to catch up and chat.

one of the things that was a lot more important than blogging was obviously school- i’ve actually finished everything i needed to do and now i can relax over the holiday- but, one major thing is that i’ve been really working on my book, and honestly- it’s going places.

and i’m probably very biased, but this book is a masterpiece. and i’m so excited to finish.

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blogmas 🎄 penny for your thoughts?

got a lot on my mind lately. and i thought it would be nice to sort of vent everything out on my blog. hey- venting is healthy!!

so, excuse me, but penny for your/my thoughts? yes please!

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blogmas 🎄 harry potter tag.

you all probably know by now that i am a massive fan of harry potter.

all of my friends know this. on the daily, people at school go, “oh my god there’s harry potter” or “she looks like harry potter” or “HIYA HARRY” and it’s annoying yet pretty sweet. so, even though that information has little to do with the context of this post, today i am doing the ‘ultimate harry potter tag’, or so one of my fellow bloggers “hoogwoorts” says so.

this tag is nothing but good fun and so please don’t take any of my opinions harshly!! i appreciate all opinions and would be happy if you did the same.

and by all means!! get all up in my comments, answer the questions- do you agree with me? why do you disagree? let’s bond over our love for harry potter.

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blogmas 🎄 a little chat.

i’ve totally been doing blogmas without even realising, and so i’m just going to collect all of my december posts into one collection: blogmas. i was desperately trying to think of a pun but nothing seemed to work, so, blogmas will do.

blogging is actually really fun…! i used to blog a lot back in 2013 and 2014, but i never stuck with a single blog for very long. i have an issue where i just grow bored of something and i love change, change needs to be constant and the feeling when something is fresh, new, clean cut is just amazing to me, so, sorry if i ever go mia on this blog- i am so very sorry.

anyway, i thought, since all i have been creating is photography posts and reviews on movies, i thought i’d wind down and just chat with everybody. if you want. if you don’t, then that is completely fine too! great!

but to those that do, then thanks. hopefully my thoughts can bring you some enjoyment.

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