deep breaths.

exams are finally over.

i haven’t been on krdramas in over like 3 months which is insane- but for good reason. i honestly just did not have the time or motivation to sit down and write a post about how i feel, just to kind of validate that i am still a blogger, and that i am still alive.

well, yes, i’m alive, and yes, i’m still blogging. not always on here, but i’m always around. exams have finished, as said earlier, and i could not be happier about it. there were exams that i feel like could have been better, but i’m just hoping i’ve done enough to pass through nicely. fingers crossed.

i’ve been catching up on many tv shows lately and also slithered back into my xmen phase. honestly, can you blame me? the xmen movies are so freaking good. honestly, i haven’t dedicated my time to reading the comics yet, but i definitely want to in the future. will put it on my to-do-list.

while i’ve been gone i have also binge-watched all of the seasons of game of thrones. honestly why did i ever put off watching it? it’s seriously so good?

oh- and i also went to harry potter world. expect a video about that because it’s in the works and i’m proud of it.

just thought i’d pop by and say, hello, yes, i’m here. alive and breathing. exam free and fine. i hope you’re all doing well !

 

heart to heart.

you know, i read a story somewhere from a woman who said something along the lines of: “i am suicidal. but it’s not what you think.” she had a normal life, wasn’t harming herself, wasn’t particularly in a hard situation…it was just a constant feeling of “if i died, i wouldn’t mind,” and “wow, i actually feel like being dead would be easier.”

the fact that people from my school probably read my blog to screenshot and make fun of in group chats is the only reason why i felt hesitant to talk about this. but, honestly, i don’t really care- i use my blog to vent and to talk and so i will. today, on the 4th of april, i decided and completely came to the conclusion that i am suicidal. and it’s honestly not what you think.

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louis newland forced me to write this-

he asked me to make a post about him so that’s what i’m doing. i told him he wasn’t my friend today but really he is, so, sorry louis. also i don’t know what to write about him because i honestly don’t know him at all, we’re just in the same engineering class, we’ve spoke like 3 times and to be honest i didn’t even know he knew who i was.

but yeah. sometimes engineering is dead and louis makes it funny. thanks. you make engineering that much more enjoyable. thanks for not being mean to me + actually talking to me sometimes because a lot of the time people just ignore me and it’s actually really sad

hi, let’s chat about my book + other stuff nobody really cares about.

woah– i’ve been kind of mia off blogging for a while, and there’s no excuse, really. i’ve just been busy with school + other things to actually want to sit down and write something on here. it felt kind of forced, which sucks, because blogging should come naturally. having been doing it for like 3 years, you think it would just come naturally to me, but sometimes, it doesn’t. so i pushed it under the rug, for far too long, and now i’m here to catch up and chat.

one of the things that was a lot more important than blogging was obviously school- i’ve actually finished everything i needed to do and now i can relax over the holiday- but, one major thing is that i’ve been really working on my book, and honestly- it’s going places.

and i’m probably very biased, but this book is a masterpiece. and i’m so excited to finish.

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TBR february 2017

as said in my “things to do in 2017” post, i really want to take up reading a bit more throughout the year, and since january was my “test month” where i basically mourned the departure of 2016 and welcomed 2017 with hesitant arms, i decided that why not make february the month where my reading hobby kicks back in?

i remember as a kid, i was always an avid reader and to be honest, i still am, although it depends on the book i am reading. nonetheless, i want to create a list of books that i want to read and hopefully finish for the end of february and i thought for my fellow book lovers, i should share my list + you could give me more recommendations or something like that.

so without further ado, here is my tbr list for february 2017.

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goodbye, january.

it is literally both amazing and terrifying that january is already over. it feels like it’s only just begun.

january, for many reasons, was an okay month. like, it was borderline okay. i wouldn’t go as far as to say it was a brilliant month or a terrible one. it was just okay.

instead of creating, what i originally wanted to, a january favourites post, i’ve decided that instead of doing that, i will create a “goodbye ____” for when each month slides by. it’s a way for me to truly express my feelings towards things that went both right and wrong during the time span of a month and also allows me to look back in future months and probably think: “wow, i had it easy in january.” but we’ll see.

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questions for writers.

many people may not know, but i am a writer.

i don’t make money from it, i’m not a professional or new york best seller or claiming to be, but i definitely excel in the creative writing department! having been published 3 times when i was younger and owning a blog dedicated to my fanfiction writing, although mainly for me to work on my skills and such with the help of an audience, i find writing naturally easy and many people agree that writing is what i’m best at. it’s definitely something i wish to pursue as a career as i get older (i’m hoping to do english or creative writing at university, or perhaps journalism or, for a stretch, history).

which is why, when i found this “writer ask meme” tag on tumblr, i just had to do it! typically, followers would send in numbers to their favourite blogs and you would answer that number, but i decided to just answer all of them in one and share more about my writing life with you all!

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